Brains and Running

This post is all over the place...

I have so many things on my mind with this half marathon training. If this topic bores you, I apologize ahead of time.

I know I'll finish the race. But within the allotted time? Of four hours? I hope so. Seems silly to me. FOUR HOURS. 13.1 MILES.

I can cover that distance in that time, right? Umm, right.

I'm sure.

I hope, anyway.

I need to train more outdoors instead of inside on a treadmill. I prefer to run outdoors, actually. But you see, it's cold here in Virginia. And I may be from Jersey where it gets frigid in wintertime, but I'm no fan of it.

So, indoor training it is for now.

I'm up to running 7 miles. But tonight I only had time to run 4 miles. And I was so disappointed with myself. Where does 4 miles get me? It doesn't help prepare me for the half.

Or does it?

And this Saturday I'm attempting to complete 8 miles. Eight.

Even the thought of the distance makes me want to throw up. And my heart starts to race.

I have absolutely no idea why.

Before I'd do a 6 or 7 mile run, my heart would race, too.

Weird? Maybe. But I've finished each goal I've set for myself. And I'm proud of myself for that.

But I don't know why I get nervous before a big run... like the 8 miles I know I'm attempting I'll complete on Saturday.

I need to believe in myself more. After all, I've gotten this far, right?

There's no turning back.